164. If God ordains all, it is impossible that I can kill or steal, unless He wishes to punish my victim through me. The victim's Karmas have fructified and it is necessary that he should die, etc. If he does not get killed, the whole structure of this creation falls through. I am therefore brought in contact with the victim to carry out His behests. An executioner is paid by the Government for doing his job. Even so, why should I not be rewarded for carrying out His will, rather than be punished for doing the Papa Karma? Hitler could not have brought on war and killed so many persons. It is idle to blame him.

God is all and He alone does everything; and yet, when man feels that he is the doer, he is also the experiencer of the rewards and punishments consequent upon his actions. It is to be remembered that evil is possible only in the state of individuality or Jivahood or egoism and not when one is God-realized, God-inspired or when one is an instrument in the hands of God. The Jiva cannot think that it is expected to kill a victim and that this is sanctioned by the Will of God, for the Jiva is not omniscient and cannot know what exactly is the Will of God, unless it is raised to the state of being in tune with God. No Jiva should fall into the misconception that it is meant to exhaust the Karmas of the victim by killing the victim. This foolish act will react upon the person who commits the action and the result will be intense suffering to the person responsible for this deed.

God does not directly speak to any Jiva and say that it should kill or steal, and if the Jiva falls into the error of committing these actions, it alone is responsible, and not God. There is no such thing as God's directing an individual to perpetrate evil, commit murder or indulge in any kind of violence or do anything which is against others' well-being. All such misdeeds are the outcome of ignorance and delusion and one who does these is punished by retributive justice. Divine activity is always a movement towards freedom, perfection, peace and bliss, and it will not be in any way a cause of even the slightest suffering or pain.

165. Can I have mental Shanti and can I feel the spiritual vibrations if I come to Rishikesh?

Yes. You can. When you come here, come alone. If you come here with your company of friends, you will create the same worldly atmosphere with all sorts of talks. Come and have the Darshan of Mahatmas. Hear their spiritual instructions. Live with them. Observe Mouna and practice concentration and meditation. Then only will you enjoy peace.

166. I am retired from service. I have fixed up my sons in service. What should I do now to lead the life of a Yogi?

Moha is very difficult to eradicate. It is a strong weapon of Maya. It is Moha that creates the idea of mineness and the feeling of egoism. It creates infatuated love for children. You have not destroyed Moha in your heart of hearts. Cut off all connection with your wife, children, friends and relatives. Do not write letters. Go in for a Yatra and visit the Mahatmas in the places of pilgrimage. Develop Vairagya. You have found out from your own experience that you cannot get supreme peace and happiness in the worldly life. If you really have no Moha and if you have a strong desire to become a Sannyasin, then become a Sannyasin. Lead a glorious life of renunciation and attain Self-realization by the practice of Yoga. From the experience of your Yatra, select a Guru who will guide .you and follow his instructions implicitly.